It's better to have lost love than paint a smile & pretend

Fucker you're so so so so sick. I barely know you for fifteen minutes & you asked to webcam !! Sick guy sick guy sick guy. Sick 22-year-old guy.

Talking about the webcam.. =/ Sigh. I bought it 'cos of her & we barely used it once. Ohwell, I still remember we were smiling to each other & all. I even gave her one damn ugly unglam kiss over the webcam. (HEHEHE SO SHY!) And I.. I miss her.

SHUT UP GLYNIS, FUCKING WAKE UP! YOU'RE SUCH A BITCH. SHE'S ALL OVER YOU & SHE'S GOING CRAZY OVER ANOTHER GIRL & NOT YOU BITCH. SHE DOESN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU SO FUCKING MOVE ON.

Oh yes I will, it's so easy to say huh. Check out tday's entry title. =/

I want to cry & I will now. >:'(

Wellwellwell, day was allright. Went to school later again tday. I don't wanna be that fucking loner @ school. I love tday's weather though. It was pouring & rather cooling. I was thinking if it's also raining on your side. I was worrying if you were drenched & soaked while walking to the LRT station. I hope you weren't, I hope you're fine.. Flag-rising in the hall again, so irritating.

English was okay. Maths was challenging. Wtf, I hate Paper II. !@$^$#&(()#@!@ RAHH! I hate Paper II! I can barely do the paper. At most 3 marks, which is oh so pathetic. Stayed in SS class during PE. Recess, Mich & I ran all the way down to the canteen & back 'cos we left Sassy alone in class. Haha. She went off to change & we were supposed to be back in class by the time she finish changing. That woman thinks that SS class is located @ the first floor, next to the canteen. Hello, it's not. ( Omg I saw blue MSN tab, my heart beebop beebop. I want to faint & die & never wake up please. ) Ignore that, random. Oh by the time we got back to the class, she was already waiting for us. Haha (: SS was effin' boring, really boring I tell you. Art was fine, ever so smooth. :D Went home immediately after school. [:

Mboards deadline extended to Monday :D Miss Teh was being nice. I haven't even started D: I better start doing it soon, really. Maybe I'd skip tmr's movie date with them & stay home to finish up my work. I'm gonna do my lit later on, before I go to sleep.

_ calld last night & we talked, just before I was falling asleep. I told her the same thing that I'd say to Qiaos.
"You know something?"
"Yeah?"
"I really love ______ a lot, so fucking much. Why she doesn't see it? Why she doesn't appreciate what I've been doing? Why she just love me no more?"
"You know what? Whenever you think of her, think that you love her so fucking much, remember this. I love you more than she ever does."

I'm sorry. Very very sorry. I don't wanna give you false hopes like I did the other time. You should find your true romance & not mingle around with someone like me. Someone who don't believe in love, somehow. Someone who thinks love is such a bitch. Someone who is still deeply in love with the one whom she thinks is The One. And I know how bad it hurts whenever you call & you have to listen to my I-love-her talks. Sigh, I'm really sorry. I hope you'd find your love soon. [:

But every time I close my eyes, you're still inside my heart.

I am so scared. So fucking scared. My nightmares are returning & tell me what should I do. I'm gonna cry so hard tonight & I'm scared. I don't know what's gonna happen if I cry.


I'm going to finish up my work. There's SS notes to write & I didn't have the time to write, fuck.

X, I miss you.
And I love you so.
I hope you're happy. (Yes you are)

And I live today not for my friends but you.

Fuck glynis, what the fuck are you doing!?!

Ok bye.

You didn't love me, did you?
<3.

7:44 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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